Unless you have owned a pet that you loved more than you ever thought possible and considered a member of your family, you will not understand my need to write this eulogy for my four-legged friend. I know people are not supposed to compare the loss of a pet to the loss of a human, but grief is a tricky thing. No two people experience it the same way, and it's impossible to put a degree or timetable on the pain.
Next week, we would have celebrated Savi's 10th birthday. I have lost family members, friends, and numerous pets before, but this ranks right up there as one of the most painful losses ever---maybe because it went on for five long weeks of hell.
Savi came to us from a pug rescue group 9 years ago, and it was love at first sight. She has been my constant companion, my fur baby girl, my sweet angel. She was family. She loved to sunbathe on the deck and her favorite food was salmon. Whenever I took warm clothes out of the dryer, she would hop on the pile, roll over on her back and take a long nap. I called her my "little piggy" because she had a plump, pink belly. There were so many kisses and snuggles with her---she was the most loving dog I have ever known. Savi sat on my lap every time I plopped down on the couch to rest, and she always slept beside me in bed for the nine years we had her. I got so used to her pug snores that they actually comforted me and helped me fall asleep. Now I cannot even sleep in that bed and instead have moved temporarily into our guest room. To say that my heart is broken is an understatement. My heart is completely shattered.
RIP Savi, I'll see you on the other side, precious girl. This home will never feel the same again without you.
I am so sorry for your loss. Even when it's obvious that this is the time, it's hard to accept. take good care of yourself. ~Cheryl
ReplyDeleteThanks--it really is hard.
DeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. Pets are as much a part of the family as anyone, and I agree that grief is grief. There are no "wrong" feelings. Sending a hug your way!
ReplyDeleteThanks---I could use the hugs.
DeleteIt is so hard to let them go. It's ok to love them like we do. They deserve it. You guys take care. jt
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words.
DeleteI feel this. I still can't write about my Riley, gone 5 years. Just can not.
ReplyDeleteI had to write about it---that's how I work through sad & traumatic things in my life.
DeleteI'm so sorry. And I know those little reminders around the house will be a stab in the heart for a long time to come. Wishing you the comfort of all the years of happy memories.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I'm just taking this one day at a time and hoping to heal sooner than later.
DeleteLook at those eyes! Oh, Marcia, I'm so sorry! She'll be waiting for you when you cross, but that's cold comfort right now. <3
ReplyDeleteYes, she had the most soulful eyes I have ever seen on a dog and she stared at me all the time.
DeleteI understand oh so well, great eulogy
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you have been through this too, and for that, I am sorry.
DeleteI am so sorry for your loss. Some of the greatest pain I have felt is from the death of a beloved pet.
ReplyDeleteIt really is tough. Today Savi would have turned 10. I am so sad.
DeleteI am so sorry for your loss and your heartache. I lost my Bella this past Saturday after 14 years of being the most 'human' four legged companion I have ever met, and I know that feeling of searching her eyes and hoping, believing in a miracle for her all too well. Going to sleep now in an empty room without her is difficult beyond words. I share your pain from across the globe. And with you I celebrate the lives and the wonderfulness of our animal friends.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you went through this, too! So painful--I can barely look at my fur baby's photos without bursting into tears and I still have not slept in my own bed since Savi died. I'm not ready to face it without her.
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